The Coming Baptism Of Fire With Holiness
(The author of this testimony has been a close friend for many years of the owner of this website. The writer is a mature Christian and a man of integrity and honesty whom I fully trust).
MY CALL FROM THE LORD TO BE A CARRIER OF THE FIRE - by William
"Introductory Note: all the words/replies from the Lord I quote below were written down by me on the spot, at home, as I heard them. So they are verbatim - the actual words God spoke to me at that time.
By way of background, some 15 years ago (2005 - when I was 60) I was in the bath with my bible having a soak and reading John the Baptist's words: "He will baptise you with the Holy Spirit and with fire". After getting out of the bath, suddenly, out of the blue, the presence of the Lord came upon me and I found myself desperately and agonisingly pleading for his holy fire - "I MUST HAVE THE FIRE", "I MUST HAVE THE FIRE", over and over again. This continued, agonising prayer came from the inmost depths of my being and was definitely the most gut wrenching and heart agonising prayer I have ever prayed in all my 35 years as a Christian. Prior to this it had never entered my head to pray for the fire. That event appeared at the time to be a "one-off" intervention by God and my life went on as before.
In 2007 I felt a burden for holiness and the fact that it was largely ignored by the Church in the West, judging by the dearth of attention given it by churches. This burden was shared by a close friend of mine, who went on to create the website Holiness UK
In 2010 when we had our inaugural training evening for our city's Healing On The Streets Team, Chris the Anglican Curate from a local church (who did the training) privately gave me some words afterwards. One of the things he said to me was: "The Lord is assigning angels to you and they will act on your words". To say I was taken aback was no exaggeration but, as you do, I filed this under the "what? I can't believe that!" category and forgot about it.
In early 2014 the Lord told me to do a three day fast (no food, just water) and spoke to me about fasting: "Keep seeking after me. I spoke to you about fasting because by doing this you will hear my voice more clearly. You will get to know me better and fasting will enable you to bring your passions and acts of your will under control. By doing this I will be able to use you more and our relationship will be strengthened. I have never stopped loving you and I never will. You are the apple of my eye. Seek me with all your heart and I will draw you closer to me".
During the fast I had a bad cold and felt I had failed in not maximising the fast time. The Lord said: "Trust me in the plans I have for you. Nothing catches me by surprise, so be re-assured of that. I have enjoyed your worship time with Me and your meeting Me in My word. You haven't failed in your fast. There will be more opportunities for us to share time together in the future. My plans are many and varied and can adapt to every circumstance. Be encouraged; I do not condemn you in any way. I am your Lord and I always seek to build you up, never to condemn. Keep seeking Me with all your heart in the days ahead and I will strengthen you in your walk with Me. I am pleased with you because I love you and live in your heart. We will share many times together in the future and I will draw you apart to be with me often. Again I say: be encouraged!"
One day He said: "Focus on me and your relationship with me. I will guide you in your steps. In the meantime, first take time to love me, to focus on me and hearing my voice. That is the most important thing, above all else. A time will be coming when you will need to hear my voice. What will you do if you cannot hear me or even sense my presence? Trust me and I will never let you down or forsake you. Keep on pressing in with your relationship with me and I will keep you in my presence when the difficult times come".
A month or so later He said: "Trust me, you are on the right track and are going on the journey I have long planned for you. Before the foundation of the earth I knew you and planned your journey of faith with Me. We have a long road still to go and many miles to travel. Always endure with me until you arrive at the goal of your life - union with Me. There will be difficulties, hardships and testings along the way. The way to enter life is through such things. I will bring you to hard testing, that your faith might be shown to be gold, pure gold, that will endure and shine brightly".
I said to the Lord: "Lord I know many faltered and failed along the way - Solomon for example, and also Jehu. Lord, I'll need to know your nearness all the time, to get through the future!" He replied: "Jesus is your example. Look to Him every time. He withstood every test and trial. He sought me with great longings and sighings and I met His every need. I will do the same for you if you take the same path He did. I treat all my children equally - there are no favourites".
One day I said "Lord, is there anything you want to say to me today? He replied: "My child, I have prepared the way for you to work mightily in my name. Everything you need I have given you - it is yours. You just need to walk in it. I have assigned angels to assist you in My Kingdom work and they long and look forward to acting in My Name on your behalf. Trust me in this and you will soon see the fruits of our work together. Spend much time in prayer throughout the day and I will prepare you for what lies ahead. Then you will be fully prepared to do the works I give you to do. Fear not, you will lack nothing. You will be clothed with power and walk in my ways". (Confirmation here of angels being assigned to me, as prophesied by the Curate from the Anglican Church!)
Then in March 2014 I heard the Lord say in the night "baptise by fire". I asked him the next day for insight and revelation about this and he said:
"You have read the words of John the Baptiser :"He will baptise you with the Holy Spirit and with fire". My word is being fulfilled in your day. I have chosen you to be a carrier of my fire to many people. Many will seek you out and seek my fire. Do not get puffed up in this or I will be displeased. As you plead with me for my fire I will put it upon you in growing measure day by day. It will not be an easy process. It will require dedication on your part to continually seek me and my fire. I do not give my fire lightly. Carriers of my fire run a holy race and you must continually remain submitted to me. My fire is holy and must be respected."
I asked the Lord when this process would begin, and he replied:
"My son it is not for you to know dates or times. I am preparing all things for my people according to my plan and my timescale. Your part for now is to cry out to me repeatedly to receive my fire. As you cry out I will hear and I will answer. The fire will burn you up and you will no longer be your own. I will possess you and carry out my plans and purposes through you".
I said "Lord, who am I that I should be chosen?"
God said: "You are dearly loved by me and My Father. All who surrender fully to me are loved by us, and the Father and I pour out our Spirit on the surrendered ones. Again I say, do not get puffed up. Rejoice rather that many will be touched and consumed by my fire and My Kingdom will be advanced. Many will be carriers of my fire in this day. Wait patiently for my timing".
Sadly, to my shame, this conversation went out of my mind for several years more, until Spring 2020.
On 15 April 2020 the Lord said:" Humble yourself before me and prepare your heart for I have much to say to you. In your life you have wavered between two opinions. I seek an undivided heart and you are to choose in which direction your heart will travel. Seek my heart with all your strength that your way ahead might be one of obedience and service to me. I have made all things possible for you to achieve in my name, but it is for you to choose what the outcome will be. There will be times when the way will be difficult and dark and you will only be able to stand in my strength. Therefore prepare your heart that you might seek the straight path that honours me and my ways."
As you can imagine I was astonished by the phrase: "In your life you have wavered between two opinions". Before we are born again we live as the world does (one opinion). But clearly the Lord was talking about my Christian life. I came to the conclusion that my Christian walk was defective in that I was clearly walking with one foot in the world. Imagine my amazement when reading my NIV bible a week later I read the exact same words: "in your life you have wavered between two opinions" The Lord's meaning became crystal clear when I read the context of the words. In 1 Kings Chapter 18 Elijah is contending with the prophets of Baal. In the process he addresses the people and prophets of Israel who are also assembled there and accusingly challenges them: "Elijah went before the people and said, "How long will you waver between two opinions? If the Lord is God, follow him; but if Baal is God, follow him." Boy, did I feel chastened and humbled before the Lord!!
By August 2020 I was back on track, fasting and praying and listening for the Lord but seeing and hearing nothing happening, so I said: "Why am I not hearing your voice regularly, despite fasting and praying?" He replied: "Write down what I'm going to say to you".
He said: "You are not yet ready for what I want to say to you. I love the efforts you have been making to hear my voice and get close to my heart. You are making good progress in your internal life with me. Wait and persevere so that I might do a complete work in you. Do not be downcast or upset at the seeming lack of progress. In due time you will burst forth like a flower coming into bloom and all will see my beauty through you. Persevere, persevere, persevere!
Then, on 23 September 2020 the Lord said:
"Because you are preparing yourself for ministry in my name I am bestowing on you my righteousness and holiness. This will be manifested in you as you walk in my ways and minister to those I am bringing to you. Do not turn anyone away, because they will have been sent by me for you to minister to.
There will be many who will seem unsuitable and not the type of person you expect. Nevertheless, my ways are higher and so you must work according to my plans.
This will happen sooner than you think since I am bringing things rapidly to a conclusion. The world is changing very fast and your old ways are passing away, never to return. Brothers and sisters will be meeting you from many backgrounds and your life experience will be radically altered. Keep praying to me for the strength you need and for the holy fire that will surround you and consume you.
You will be used to minister my presence and my holy fire to those who seek after me and my truth and righteousness. Some will come for other reasons and I will give you the ability to discern motives. Do not judge people who will come, as my love is available and freely given to all, irrespective of motive". Now the really scary bit! He continued: "I will take responsibility for my Kingdom work and your hands and the hands of others must not touch it or interfere with it, otherwise there will be a penalty to pay and I do not wish to administer discipline unless you are wayward in this task. Be faithful and do not give up or delay in acting on what I give you to do".
On waking on 12 October, I had a momentary "flash" vision of a mini queue outside my front door, one behind the other. The first person was our window cleaner, the second an 84 year old man I know. My interpretation is that this was an illustration from the Lord showing how some coming to me will be "the kind of people who seem unsuitable and not the type you expect". Two days prior to this as I was praying in the morning the Lord said: "So and So (name omitted) is pivotal and he will be coming to see you". He is someone I know of and have met once, but again is someone I would definitely not expect to be seeking after the fire. In the past I have doubted whether this man was even a genuine Christian! God's ways sure are higher than ours!
As at 17 January 2021 I am continuing to cry out to the Lord for His holy fire, day and night. I am also praying for the strength and courage to walk in it. I still have no idea when all this will come to pass. On my next birthday I will be 76 - nearly as old as Moses was when he started his ministry!
Written by William